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immma lover<3 :D

straight up baby do you really wanna love me forever? or isit just a hit and runnn <3

hello tumblr.  its been a whilee.. uhmm alot has happened since the last time i tumbledd..! hmm i went back to my black hair ive lost a couple people&#8222; i dont really get on here anymore.. new living arrangments.. i got a couplee weird calls from a certain someone.. i met a new boy. hes a player though soo its not attractive.. im sick right now with a horrible cold and in all honestyi really just wanna tokee it right now.. uhmm but yeaa i cant trust anyone now a days maynee.

hello tumblr. 

its been a whilee.. uhmm alot has happened since the last time i tumbledd..! hmm i went back to my black hair ive lost a couple people„ i dont really get on here anymore.. new living arrangments.. i got a couplee weird calls from a certain someone.. i met a new boy. hes a player though soo its not attractive.. im sick right now with a horrible cold and in all honestyi really just wanna tokee it right now.. uhmm but yeaa i cant trust anyone now a days maynee.

November 19&#160;90 - April 23&#160;11 &#8220;you say were both little people&#8221;                       rest easy trav i know your still on your journey and you werent there forr my tat but i miss you soo much and i love you :) i wish you were still here but i actually got a little closer getting this .. but no where near the end of my depression. i have somethings to tell you.. i heard you visited kevin in his dreams annoying me and jessie like you 2 always did :) im sure he misses you hes just a little bitch &lt;3 one things for sure i miss you.. its hard without you.. you never know what you have til its gone thats forsuree i wish we couldve fixed our friendship before you passed, but i know you understandd and if not you will one dayy &lt;3 i miss you trav and i love you!! &lt;3

November 19 90 - April 23 11

“you say were both little people”

                      rest easy trav i know your still on your journey and you werent there forr my tat but i miss you soo much and i love you :) i wish you were still here but i actually got a little closer getting this .. but no where near the end of my depression. i have somethings to tell you.. i heard you visited kevin in his dreams annoying me and jessie like you 2 always did :) im sure he misses you hes just a little bitch <3 one things for sure i miss you.. its hard without you.. you never know what you have til its gone thats forsuree i wish we couldve fixed our friendship before you passed, but i know you understandd and if not you will one dayy <3 i miss you trav and i love you!! <3

lastnight was pretty fuckin funn :) jen and tyler came over :) had alot of fun with them.. these are our kitty faces &lt;3 lmao jens idea, jessie fell asleep though.. &#8220;and i was like LAME&#8221; &lt;3 but still was fun my brother was here too and he had fun &lt;3 reminised on traav for a whilee.. i miss him SOO damn much :/ but anyways more nights like this comingg :) BABE; &#8220;there blueberry alright..now just shhh shhh shhhh your sisters tryingg to sleep&#8221; &lt;3

lastnight was pretty fuckin funn :) jen and tyler came over :) had alot of fun with them.. these are our kitty faces <3 lmao jens idea, jessie fell asleep though.. “and i was like LAME” <3 but still was fun my brother was here too and he had fun <3 reminised on traav for a whilee.. i miss him SOO damn much :/ but anyways more nights like this comingg :) BABE; “there blueberry alright..now just shhh shhh shhhh your sisters tryingg to sleep” <3

omg tumblrrr

i swear im gunna bloww uppp!

i had a lot of fun tonight with my girl for the last timee in a whilee itll be hard as fuck to say bye too jess</3 

but alot of bad things happened.. idk peopleee bee trippinn i swear

like can i just ask you whoo the fuckk you think you aree.? 

and i have my cough coming back GREATT! that is just lovellyy ! fuckin stupid shit you know what though there were more goood than bad things soo im not gunna cryy i do feel like crying but im not gunna cause i had a goood ass night without all that extra drama bullshit i just dont neeed shit like that in my life cause it just makes me upset boys are stupid i got stood upp tonighhtt„ soo thats wonderful and i wanted to hang out with cuppy cakee today but it didnt happen„ idk blehh stupid especially KEVIN ahh stupidddd.. i doo NOT like him i swear fakeee assss.. but anyways im gunna postt some shit <3 

I LOVE YOU JESSSSIEEE<3

well

i know one thing. i will always love the person you were when we met and for the time we were in eachothers lives but who you were before and who you are now is just gross im sorry but it is you make me wanna throw upp on you. you seriously disgust me and it dosent even matter cause you dont care. you have a horrible heart and thats the truth. i cant believe i let someone like you into my life i never thought id be here today saying things like this about YOU. YOU OF AL PEOPLEE, all the evidence was in my face soo many times, and honestly i just let myself get hurt. im sitting here almost crying just thinking about everything, i come in my room and theres soo much stuff that reminds me of you. i feel like your dead and its tearing me apart cause your a bad person and you need help and i can help you but the way you tear me down is not fair and i dont wanna play your games anymore i honestly just want to be happy but idk how to make myself happy, soo much is going on that i wish you were here for and you treat me like complete shit, i dont get why you treat me like that, i know who you really are and the person your trying so hard to be nowadays is not you, im at a breaking point, people tear me down alot or they try but you, you actually do it hte worst i dont feel like living anymore sometimes but i have ALOT to live for and i cant live it knowing that i knew someone who has such a bad heart like you do its sad and im grossed out that i ever let you innn i swear i would take that shit back if i could cause im trying to just push you away but after 2 years its not easy at all. people grow up and things change and i wish that wasnt true but thats the lesson ive learned here you can never get attatched because in the end you die, you become nothing, and thats the truth and travis its been 2 months today since youve been gone but it feels so much longer i wish i had you to talk to that would be good, i needa hugg you or i need you to make me laugh or i need you to tell mee how gay you think ***** is </3 soo many things in life have changed. i hope you never read this cause im saying hurtful things but its how you make me feel and im honestly sorry if i ever made you feel anywhere close to this you shouldve told me, i think thats another thing tearing me apart.. you used to tell me i made you feel like shit, but i honestly dont see how i really just dont, what did i ever do.? ooh and can i ever get a fucking simple answer from you? ahaa noo your soo immature.. i swear i just wanna be done with everything

my jessie:/ i DO NOT want her to leave i think thatll bee the end of everything when she leaves im just gunna go insane but its whats best for them even though she disagrees, i miss my ceeej already and im soo sad hes gone:/ i miss dad i miss trav i miss billy i miss liz i miss my mom i miss mom i miss kevin i miss jen i miss everyone i miss thomas.. everything is falling apart and its been like that for me ever since i hada get rid of my babyy i miss him alot i swear right now id be laying in bed with him cryingg

idk where you are trav but i FUCKING miss you and i know your lost but youll find us one day i love you sooo much i know your scared but youll get through it youll find happiness <3 thats the only thing i have faith in is that you will findd happiness i love you